Wednesday, October 14, 2009

i want to be H.A.P.P.Y



i am waiting for my sister


havent completed my pbl
havent read for respiratory physical examination for tomorrow
havent learned much for urinary system


have a lot things to do
but at this moment
nothing can be done


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i want to be happy
like everyone else
i hate having hurtful feeling inside of me
i may smile, laugh at ijan's jokes
but deep inside
there's something yet to be discovered and understood

da dua hari mcm ni
rse lost
buat itu xkne, buat ini pun salah
i wonder why
but nothing provides me explanation


i hate blaming people
and because of that, i blame myself


a very dear friend of mine, afiq, once pernah mention

"dhira, kau ni terlalu care for feeling of others. and yet, no one really care for you as much as you care for them"

i smiled
well, i never thought of it that way
i believe that if we make others happy, we will be happy too
but why didnt i get that
why happiness never really stays with me
why must it comes after a long wait and goes away after a few moments


maybe it's true then
happiness is something that can only be pursued, but never gained
maybe i am just not worth it
maybe


i want to be happy
tell me how
provide me ways
and guide me there


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still waiting for my sister
and cant get anything done



13 comments:

najwa turner said...

i know how!!!!

hahaahaha. pegi cari pakwe fantasi mcm adik pnye alex turner ;pp

Noor Farhana Zakaria said...

juz drop by..
praying that u'll get back ur happiness..
May Allah bless u..

*tak tahu nak comment ape, but feeling like to drop something here
*nad, jgn marah yeee...

n A j w A e said...

stress study?
unlikely la dira =D

just do wht u really want 2 do,
plg simple lepak2 blik org sambil gelak ramai2.haha

smile!



p/s : shopping ok gak (duit kat akaun da b+ kan.hee)

nadhira khairudin said...

adik : da ade da...daniel radcliffe...tp die asyik duk hogwarts je...susah nk fantasi..sbb hogwarts pnye wall protection die dumbledore buat hebat sgt..
*sori merapu*

anna : thanks anna...xde sbb nk mrh...skela ade org drop comment =D

najwae : idea yg menarik...da slalu da buat mcm tu..tp dekat2 exam ni kurangla sket...nnti pas exam buat smula..nway,sem ni kne jimat2...xbley shopping sgt..lol

farhanasyazwani said...

\(n_n)/*peluk2.

atiqah xx said...

hw about going shopping ke...jlan2 ke...
at least, ade org kat sbelah.
so that,you won't feel lonely.

nadhira khairudin said...

paan : \(n_n)/ peluk jge dan rse lebey bhgia

cidut : send me the money~~~

najwa turner said...

wakakak! tak sesuai lah. cri org laen lah. yang boleh kasi komitmenn!

nadhira khairudin said...

adik : kalau susah2 sgt..kte kongsi je alex turner tuh..bley???ngee~~~

s a n g a i n A said...

eyyyy!! tak boleh. mane boleh share. tak asli lahhh. nnt kakya dpt anak ngan dye! mane bolehh! tak boleh! pegi cari penyanyi lain. pegi kat yahoo. search gamba NICK VALENSI. hensemmm ~ pegi cepat.
lagi sekali TIDAK BOLEHHH~~


-adik-

nadhira khairudin said...

lerrr...asl nama kakak tp adek yg komen....nick valensi tu xcumel pon cm alex turner...xpela...da ade pilihan ati sndiri da...

JAMES MARSDEN!!!!~~~~

najwa turner said...

hensem lah nick valensi tuh. muke dye sweet je. sedap mate memandang. kalau kkya tunjuk kat abah mesti trus setuju.

oyehh, alex turner mane ade tandingan, FULLSTOP!

james marsden = hidung seksi ;pp

nadhira khairudin said...

yela tu...ntah2 pengsan abh kt situ..especially kalao bwk blik alex turner..putih sgt mcm mayat..pastu mcm khayal dlm dunia sndiri je...hik3


james marsden = jawline xbley thn!!!!