Saturday, February 20, 2010

a b.a.n.d.u.n.g experience

february 16th - february 19th
literally, i spent 4 days and 3 nights in Bandung, West Java, Indonesia
*aka paris van java*
with my mother,all my siblings,my aunt and all her 3 sons
this was my first time went holiday outside malaysia
and thus making my b.a.n.d.u.n.g experience a special one

what happened in 4 days
*simplified version*

tuesday - feb 16th

  • departed from LCCT at about 1530
  • arrived at Bandara Husein Sastranegara at about 1645
  • checked in Aston Braga Hotel and Residence, Bandung
  • had dinner at Wendy's and bought bread and lots of instant noodles

wednesday - feb 17th

  • went sight-seeing starting at 0830
  • went to Tangkuban Parahu volcano site
  • went to tea plantation and strawberry plantation
  • went to Rumah Mode for the first taste of shopping in bandung
  • had "padang"ese lunch at Rumah Makan Gelora Minang
  • went to Paris van Java
  • went back to hotel and had instant noodles for dinner

thursday - feb 18th
*favourite day*
**all of us spent the whole day shopping**

  • went to Pasar Baru and got myself a red kebaya
  • went to Terminal Tas and got myself a new bag
  • went to Heritage and got myself lots of blouses
  • went to Kartika Sari and bought delicious brownies

friday - feb 19th

  • arrived at Bandara Husein Sastranegara at 1000 to checked in
  • departed from Bandung at 1200
  • landed at LCCT at 1500
  • went home

*in nadhira's point of view*

the thing i like about bandung is the weather
*except for the fact that it rained every evening*
it is not too hot and not too cold either
we travel around in angkot in which we normally had to pay from rp1000 to rp5000 depending on how far our destination is
*rp1000 = rmo.30*
there are also a lot of factory outlets selling clothes and bags and shoes and everything you can put name on
the people in bandung is very nice and kind
it is very easy to ask around and they always have smiles on their faces

they say a picture tells a thousand words
what if there are more than just one?

pictures courtesy to azri's dslr

more pictures in my facebook
**tp kne tngu smpi my cousin azri uploadla ye~~~**

till then

with love

Thursday, February 11, 2010

i'm colour-blind, so what?

i was sort of relieved today
knowing that i can still do medicine even though i'm colour-blind
*seriously i am*
**and it's colour vision impairment to be precise and not blind as i can still see colours and know them**

i remember the day i got my rubella injection when i was in standard one
that was the first time a laid my eyes on the ishihara chart
*it's a booklet containing a lot of pictures with lots of colours and a hidden thing inside*
i remember my classmates during that time telling me the 8 when what i see on the chart is 3
and i remember the nurse told me this,
"adik ni rabun warna agaknye"
but i didnt care at all at that time


11 years later
when i failed my computer test in order to get driving license
i remember crying by the roadside waiting for my father to get me home
the feeling i felt at that particular moment was indescribable
it was totally frustrating
like totally totally totally frustrating
that i dont mind other people who saw me crying anymore

eventhough i was medically given permission to get my driving license later on by registered practitioner
and have my own license to this very day
but knowing the fact that there are colours others can see and differentiate which i cant
knowing that i am lacking something so basic
still brought me to tears sometimes


but today's practical which is on special senses changes things for me

when i first read the manual and realised that there are some visual tests *including colour vision* will be done
i was *honestly speaking* depressed
i start imagining stupid things
i was scared that i will be banished from this medical world forever because of the defect that i have
i was scared if colour blind people CANNOT become doctors and i need to change my field
what should i do then?

my friend, sarinah kept telling me that there will be no problem being colour-blind
and there are those who have impairment in their colour vision
and still become successful doctors today
but that fact doesnt soothe me down
i even woke up this morning thinking that today will be my last day in this medical school and blood supply of the brain will be the last thing i will be learning

when i entered the lab this morning
i promised myself that i wont even mention about my visual impairment
and i WONT touch the ishihara chart

but i realised that running away from the fact isnt the solution
because it had been stuck on me from the day i was born and till the day i die
so i went on looking at the chart
above all plates, i can only figure out the first one correctly
the 2nd up to the 7th plate, i see differently from the normal ones
and for the rest of the plates, i can only see dots of colours and nothing else

when we begin our discussion on colour vision
i never plan to volunteer myself if in any case doctor ask us
i will only keep myself quiet

little did i know
Allah had prepared something else for me

when my doctor *the doctor in charge of our lab* open the second plate of the ishihara chart
*the plate below is the second plate*
she asked everyone,
"so, what do you see in this plate"
and everyone *except me* answered,
"number 8"
then she suddenly said,
"well, i dont see number 8 in this one. i see number 3"

the moment she said that
i looked up at her and involuntarily put up my hand and blurted out,
"doctor, saya pun nmpk 3 jugak"

then every heads turn upon me
*at least i expect this one*
then she asked me,
"awk colour-blind ke?"
i just nodded and she asked several more questions about my family and stuff

i dont care about anything at that moment
all i care is that
i'm not alone

she's in front of me
she's a woman
she's colour-blind
and most importantly
she's a medical doctor

and i'm relieved and grateful of that fact

thank you Allah

you might see number 8 in the figure above
but i see number 3

so what?

till then

with tears pride

p/s :

i have faith that Allah is the fairest of all and it is proved today!!
eventhough my colour vision is impaired, i have visual acuity of 6/4
and i'm thankful of that~~

Sunday, February 7, 2010

superior colliculus of the midbrain

to make things clear
i had at least 8 topics to cover
and sad to say
i'm still stuck at the superior colliculus of the midbrain
unable to move on
*cant find the reasons why*

even worse
next week *tomorrow precisely* will be the beginning of the third week of this particular module
and superior colliculus of the midbrain was the first week thingy

till then


p/s : next week = home
*cant wait*

Saturday, February 6, 2010

drowned in alphabets


when there a lot of things on mind but cant find the right word
that's what happen

till then


with love