Friday, September 30, 2011



here's a serious post for tonight
not that serious actually
just some medical thingy i was explained to this morning
and i feel like sharing it with everyone
so i'll try to make it as simple as possible for everyone to understand :)

i guess everyone who reads my blog knows that i'm currently in Psychiatry posting
a posting which deals a lot with peoples mind and emotion and what not

so here goes

decades ago
a guy named Sigmund Freud came up with an adorable hypothesis to understand human's behaviours based on psychological forces
*i called it adorable =D*

figure :)
 the figure above simplifies my explanation below :)

our mind can be primarily divided into the conscious and subconscious area
and mingling inside both these areas were what i call as
The 3 Stooges

please meet 


individually, these 3 men/women plays different roles
they were born together when we were born
they grow up together with us

mr.ID *which stands for Instinctive Drive* can also be called nafsu or desire
he was the most primitive among these 3 men/women
the most animalistic
all he ever think was getting what he want
in any way possible
and he end up being aggressive whenever his needs or desires were not fulfilled
he lived all his life in the subconscious and rarely emerged into the conscious
making us unaware of his presence
however, when the desire was uncontrollable, you know where you'll find him :)

the second one was mr.Superego whom can also be called as iman or the good faith
most part of him stayed in the subconscious as well
in order to take care of mr.ID
whenever mr.ID came up with crazy ideas which does not go along with the beliefs of mr.Superego
he'll try to talk mr.ID out of it
that's why mr.ID rarely comes out

the last one is mr.Ego or also known as akal
most part of him stays in conscious part which keep us orientated to time,place and person
which help us in coordination and memory and stuffs that we are aware of every single day
the only part of him which stays in the subconscious is the defense mechanism
which only comes out in certain conditions which require us to defend ourselves
he is also the person whom make decision and action based on the discussion made by mr.ID and mr.Superego

so in reality
these 3 stooges controlled our behaviour

more figure :)

the figure above is basically a visual explanation on what happen every moment every day in our lives
it all depends on mr.Superego
if he's good and strong enough to tell mr.ID right from wrong
i strongly believe the world will be a happy place to live in

mind you that mr.ID is NOT all bad
he has good quality as well
when he desires something god like eating, bathing, studying and what not
mr.Superego will definitely support that idea
and mr.Ego will eventually implement them

in a nutshell
it all depends on how we develop our own mind
because these 3 stooges grow up together with us
if we feed them with good things
learn good things
wonder how things can go bad right?


Thursday, September 29, 2011



There's a place for us
Somewhere a place for us
Peace and quiet and open air
Wait for us

There's a time for us
Some day a time for us
Time together with time to spare
Time to look, time to care
Some day

We'll find a new way of living
We'll find a way of forgiving

There's a place for us
A time and place for us
Hold my hand and we're halfway there
Hold my hand and I'll take you there
Some day

as always
idina menzel & lea michele
were awesome


p/s : if you found that i'm talking nonsense, go find
glee season 3, episode 2 - i am unicorn
and watch it!
i've been replaying the scene again and again and again *currently still replaying*

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

dinner is served


hari ni duk rumah sorg2
diba & ira pg interfaith forum
faizah g study group
so here i am 

tp xsuke turun cafe mlm2 sorg2
so end up dgn decision ngan masak

masak ape?


i call this
"spagetti melayu kuno"

jgn tnye kenapa nama mcm tu
itu je yg terlintas dlm kepala

anyway, nk buat die senang je
cuma perlukan
*saya letak carrot, kacang buncis & cendawan*

cara die mcm nk goreng mee biasa tu je
ibu ckp main campak2 je
sbb skill memasak dtg dr experience
over da ni

nak makan




"this night is sparkling, dont you let it go
i'm wonderstruck, blushing all the way home
i'll spend forever, wondering if you knew
i was e.n.c.h.a.n.t.e.d to meet you"

i will skip everything i've written in the lost post
and get straight to business

the enchantedness of this post will be revealed by the pictures :)
*i am not sure if the word enchantedness exist*

reasons why my 2011Syawal is e.n.c.h.a.n.t.e.d
loved one

there isnt any picture of both of us sbb dia xblik this year
but we still celebrate the same Syawal :)

it was indeed enchanted, wasnt it?




okay kawan2
blogpost enchanted raya saya ilang!!

officially menyampah dgn blogpress :(


Tuesday, September 27, 2011

out of nothing


disebabkan bangun terlalu awal untuk pagi community service
inilah jadinya :P

some small memory came across my mind this morning
here goes

student : patient can hear what he thinks aloud - gedankenlautwerden
doctor : yup..that's correct..gedankenlautwerden is another term used for thoughts echo..but how did you all get that?were you bringing medical dictionary with you or something?
student : we googled
doctor : oh..i'm impressed!!

oh dont be dear doctor
blame the technology for making the fingers do the learning
not the brain
if you know what i mean

these days
even the medical students refuse to open books
wonder how the future looks like


~posted wtih love using BlogPress from my iPad

Wednesday, September 21, 2011



today is a stressful day
sangat stressful

i had my observed long case this morning for my psychiatry posting
and i confidently claimed that it was not one of my good performances
to be honest
mmg sedikit kecewa with what had happened

i was given a newly admitted patient for that assessment
patient was brought in by her father with complaint of abnormal behaviour for the past 2-3 weeks
she was talking to herself, laughing to herself, claiming that she could hear noises all around her, blablabla

there wasnt much problem with the clerking
the discussion afterward was terrible!!
i dont feel like sharing what happened here
just wanted to write something --"

after the observed long case came the SSM (special study module) part
there was so much to be done in such a short period of time
a lot of decision making in which honestly speaking, i am NOT fond of making decisions

then my gastritis came in
probably becausei didnt take my dinner last night leaving my stomach lining vulnerable to the acid and enzymes and what not


i considered myself lucky
very lucky

my supervisor for psychiatry posting is Prof (K) Dr Hatta which probably is the best psychiatrist around
he is kind and fatherly and helpful and understanding and all
but i feel bad when i couldnt answer some of his questions during my long case
i let you down prof, my apologies =(

i have awesome people in my SSM group and awesome supervisor and awesome doctors
without them my SSM project might not reach this far and i might end up with worse condition than i am now

*more sigh*

this post is basically how i feel today and a few days prior
many of you might wonder how the title come about

well, after some deep cenversation and thinking and referring to DSM-IV-TR
i considered myself eligible to self-diagnose myself with mild major depressive disorder

simply because :

1. ive been having anhedonia - loss of interest in most of the daily activities
2. ive have trouble sleeping - initial insomnia and fragmentation of sleep in which will leave me tired the very next day
3. ive been having trouble in concentrating in anything i do
4. ive been losing my appetite but not losing weight just yet
5. psychomotor retardation - i noticed that i have become slow in everyting i do or think

there are 5 criterias ive fulfilled to self-diagnose myself with that disorder
thank God i havent reach the point where there is suicidal ideation
hopefully not ever

this post might be some sort of calling-for-help note from me before i reach the point of no return

~ posted with lots of love using BlogPress from my iPad

Monday, September 12, 2011

i went jogging today

yup!!that title is for real!!


in the aftermath of my excitement going for jogging today
or should i say joggiwalking or jog-walking
here is my post about it

it all started because of this thingy!!

i went to aqeeda's house for raya last sunday
and actually planned to wear this kurung which i havent touched for 2 years

all of  you manage to guess correctly


for god sake
i was like biar betul xmuat
i even took off all the darts
*things that people sew on kurung to make it shapier, whatever*
and it still didnt fit me!!

okay people
you can close your mouth now

i know right
baju baru 2 tahun da xmuat
so intervention diperlukan!!
sebab tu la pg jogging hari ni

pagi ahad tu terus call ibu suruh bawak kasut
so that bole pg jogging :)

cukup cerita tu

 move on to today's jogging experience
sedang saya memaksa diri berjogging
dgn tidak semena2 ade seorg budak tergelincir dlm kolam
and ada sorg mamat ni yg tgh jogging jgk time tu
terjun dlm kolam tu utk selamatkn budak tu
terus mamat tu jd hensem 

tp serius
bole buat calon suami

azeezie, no offense =P

tu jela cite arini
mintk2 esok kuat semangat nk pg jogging lg 


p/s : anyway, those yg rase2 xpercaya saya pg jogging today, i have PROOF!!

i know it seems gross..but who cares =D

Saturday, September 10, 2011



ini post pertama yang ditaip menggunakan skrin sentuh
terasa excited semacam je
*woot woot*

mungkin lepas ni akan lebih rajin update
mungkin la

serius seronok
walaupun to be honest taip gne keyboard missV saya lagi senang
atau mungkin jari saya yg terlampau gemuk utk skrin iPad ni
mungkin la

xabis seronok lagi ni
nk sambung seronok sendiri sorg2 =D

~ posted with lots of love using BlogPress from my iPad