Tuesday, June 21, 2011

malu betul !!


sebelum terus merepek panjang kat post ni
ingin aku tekankan betapa

"malay language is my mother tongue"

gila malu hari ni

20 jun 2011

today is our last monday kt sni
so according to schedule, ade seminar for long case presentation from every student

my turn was at the very last
actually yg tiga org da lepas dlu 
tiba2 pulak ada interview utk junior doctors pkul 3
so terpaksa mewujudkan hiatus selama 1 jam setengah
and by 430, i was the only one yg belum present

case tonsillitis je pun
bkn laryngeal carcinoma ke ape
so xdela sbb yg sgt besar utk nervous

tp ntah
maybe sbb 1st time present dpn mat saleh kan
Consultant Head & Neck Surgeon
dahla dgn accent british
tambah pulak bunyi2 german kt accent die tu

so at 430, kitorg enter conference room

mrHilger : so, there's only you left to present
*korg bygknla accent british+german dia oke*
saya : yup
mrHilger : okay..but i think we dont need the projector..is it alright?
saya : yup..guna laptop je pun da cukup i think
*ini sgt memalukan oke*

budak2 ni gelak je time tu
tp mrHilger sgt baik
die angguk2 je, buat2 faham my statement
malu gila weh!!
xde perkataan yg bole menggambarkan perasaan malu ketika itu

oh tidak

tiada cheers kali ni

p/s : to mrAndreasHilger, i seriously didnt mean any disrespect..i was just too nervous perhaps :)

Sunday, June 19, 2011

mixed feeling


tinggal 1 mggu je lg
actually da kurang drpd 1 mggu

da start ade mixed feelings

seriously rindu rumah
nk balik
mkn mcm2
jmpe sume org

tp xnk tgglkn tmpt ni
blum puas explore lg
especially oxford street

macam mane ye?

why cant we be at 2 places in one time
and why must london and kuala lumpur be 13 hours apart
why cant they be just next to each other??

soalan yang xde jawapan

it does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live

so lets go back to reality
esok ade presentation dgn mrHilger
wish me luck

then i have some more shopping to do

and late saturday night
i'll be boarding my flight back to kuala lumpur


Wednesday, June 15, 2011



da 2 mggu da menetap kt england
xpernah sangka akan merasa peluang ni

dlu mmg gila2 pnye teringin nk dtg sni
konon negara matsaleh ni cantik,sejuk,blablabla
tp mcm lutfi ckp smlm time tngu bas nk g sainsbury
"the grass will always look greener on the other side"

hujan emas di negeri org
hujan batu di negei sndiri
lebih baik negeri sndiri

ini ternyata menunjukkan saya rindu malaysia
mne tak nye
duk sni hari2 mkn ubi kentang
hari2 makan roti bakar
hari2 makan sayur
sungguh rse sgt sihat sekarang ni
kalau ade penimbang berat
mau turun beberapa kilo =)

tapi pengalaman ni mmg xkn dpt kt mne2
balajr kt sni sgt berbeza drpd belajar kt ppukm

situation 1 :
(clinic hours)

knocked the door of the consultant's clinic room
me : excuse me mr ........ can i join your clinic this afternoon?
consultant : of course..come in..take a seat..please make yourself comfortable.
(ini mmg x pernah terjadi to me kt ukm)
grabbed a patient's file
consultant : alright..this patient came in with purulent discharge of the right ear blablabla
after one or two patients, the nurse in the room will offer herself to make coffee for the consultant
and FOR ME!!!
*of course i decline everytime =D*

situation 2 :
(getting out of the elevator and stare down the corridor not knowing which way to go)

someone : excuse me dear..are you lost?

*this someone could be anyone..from janitors to nurses to even the consultants*

it was a very pleasant environment here in the ipswich hospital
semua org akan senyum back to you when we smiled at them
and everyone will bid you good morning eventhough you are just a medical student
i feel motivated everytime i bgn pg utk pg kelas
but still
i miss ppukm
i miss ppukm a lot =(

enough of that
i think it should be enough for this time

blum sempat utk amik a lot of pictures here in ipswich
but this one is taken in london
and i by far my favourite =D