Friday, December 31, 2010

ape pendapat awak?

saya xde facebook
tp mak saya pun ade facebook

selamat tahun baru semua

with love

Wednesday, December 29, 2010


time : 1050 am

i was sitting in the lecture hall when kan chan siang came up to me and said,

"nad, short case 230 this evening at OB2"

*short case - an assessment of your clinical skills in palpating patients in obstetrics and gynaecology plus some discussion on diseases related to pregnancy*

i was like
suddenly my mind went blank
mcm mne nk short case
totally unprepared
but still
no matter what i said that time, the short case will still be carried out and i should be covering what i can at that time


time : 2.45pm

i saw her walking in the ward
in my opinion the most beautiful specialist in the department
my heart was tachycardic
and my palms were as cold as ice
nothing can describe the feeling that particular moment

then she called us one by one making sure all of us were there already
and she told siang to come with her first and the rest of us to wait in the tutorial room
so off we went to the tutorial room

time flies


time : 3.40 pm

the three of us in the tutorial room were restless
what took so long?
as far as we knew, short cases normally will only take 15 - 20 minutes
and here we are waiting for almost an hour

then yin ru came in, and said,

"dr lim went to the labour room to conduct delivery of her patient from wad khas. u all tunggu ok. jgn pegi mane2"

we were like
more waiting


time : 410 pm

the door of the tutorial room was opened by someone
and there stood dr lim, smiling to us and said,

"do u want to know what happened? haih..come..nur fathurah. i'll try to make you meet your death as fast as possible"

so we were dumbfounded
and fathurah followed her


time : 425 pm

dr lim entered the room again calling chai xin hang as the next candidate
then there left me, alone, counting second by second


time : 445pm

at last
my turn came
i followed her to the bed
and the patient was already diagnosed to be in active phase of labour with the cervical os 4 cm
so arm need to be done before sending her to the labour room

at first i thought that it would be the end of my life since we might need to find another patient who is pregnant to be palpated
and that would take forever since the red ward was already filled with postnatal patients
luckily, the patient said that she was okay for only another student to palpate her abdomen

so i went on
palpating pregnant lady with on previous scar, currently at 35 weeks and 6 days period of amenorrhea with uterus smaller than her dates

there were mistakes here and there
but overall i was quite confident with myself
and the discussion after that went well too

Allah, i cant thank you enough


time : 505 pm

i went back with smile on my face
enjoying obstetrics and gynaecology posting even more
and hoping for good result

with love

p/s :
~ thanks a lot Dr Rahana for teaching me skills in palpating abdomen with gravid uterus
~ thanks to my group members for helping me sharpen my skills and knowledge
~ thanks to Dr Lim Yun-Hsuen for making my short case uneventful
~ thanks you Allah for eveything =D

Monday, December 27, 2010

perempuan itu istimewa

two weeks until the end of obstetrics & gynaecology posting


perempuan itu istimewa

6 weeks in obs & gynae opened my eyes a lot
even as a lady, i never thought women had the capability that i knew we actually do have now
in obs & gynae, we dealt with women from the very young up till the very old
yg paling magnificent sekali would be dealing with pregnant women

after all this time, kite cuma dgr people mention
penat ibu mengandung 9 bulan sepuluh hari
hormat mak, die jage kite dlm perut lame
die yang lahirkn kite
die yang besarkan kite
die yang jge kite malam2 up till the point xkn ade seekor nyamuk pun yang hinggap kat badan kite
but actually, do we really go deep into these sayings?

most of us actually did not experience watching the pain of women in labour
ya Allah..tuhan je yang tau
i may not experienced it yet
but watching mothers struggle with contractions pain, waiting for the cervical os to dilate up to 10 cm sent chills up my spine
kalau yang os fully dilate after 2-3 hours tu xpe jgk
tp bygkn yg kene tngu smpi 11-12 hours just to make sure the baby is safely delivered
dgn contractions 1 in 2 minutes

the first thing that came to my mind after observing the first delivery in my life was
"ya Allah, macam manela ibu bole tahan semua ni smpi 5 kali"

only after observed yg itu baru sedar mcm mane peritnye seorang perempuan tu nk bersalin
dgn episiotomy nye
pastu kne suture lg
blood loss yang slalunya not less than 250 mls

only women can withstand that

first time conduct delivery
i only tarik bahu je after midwife tarik kepala baby tu
ble baby tu da kuar, da cord clamp, kte angkat tunjuk kt mak die
time tu baby da nangis and obvious dpt tgk mak die senyum and as if hilang sume sakit yang die rase time tu
then ble baby tu da bersih, da wrap comel2, letak baby tu dlm warmer sebelah bed mak die
time tu pun obvious mak die akn tgk je baby tu
and baby tu pun kebil2 tgk mak die
kne jahit time tu pun xrase da kot
indahnya kuasa Tuhan
kte yang melihat ni pun rase happy tgk the bond yg formed just by looking into each others eyes

that was an amazing experience
6 weeks thought me a lot

in Al-Qur'an, ade satu surah dinamakan sempena wanita
- an-Nisa' -
in medical practice, ade satu major specialty just addressing women
- obstetrics and gynaecology -

perempuan memang istimewa
itu hakikatnya


2 weeks till the end of obstetrics & gynaecology posting

with love

Sunday, December 26, 2010


it's one day post-christmas

nk post something
tp tatau ape

maybe next time

merry christmas to those who celebrate!!

with love

Sunday, December 19, 2010

empat empat puluh satu pagi

pagi ni tibe2 terasa nk post blog yg da lme sgt xbukak
sibuk ke?
ntah..mungkin sibuk kot

case write ups sume da anta
kad jemputan dinner sume da ready
so rse ringan skit kepala
kalau x tu,sume bnde nk kne fkir
dgn ward round hari2
conduct delivery yg belum complete
short case


banyak bnde jd since last time post blog
yg plg besar skali would be my sis wedding

mcm xpercaya
kakak yg slama ni jd bahan buli kitorg adik beradik da kawin
skarang da xbole nk call die ajak die kuar suke2 ati da
nk blik ngan die pun da susah
pasni kne blik naik train kalau die xnk balik
dlu bole paksa2
skarang da lain
nk call die ajak g pavi beli donut pun da xbole
rase kekok ble ade lelaki lain yg lg tua dlm umah selain abah
and kekok ble abah yg anta saya blik hukm instead of naik snowvy die yg kadang2 mcm kereta hantu tu
kekok ble blik umah tidur tiga org je dlm bilik yg selama ni berempat

saya doa die bahagia smpi ble2
dia mungkin xbole teman saya smpi ble
sbb die ade hidup die jgk
tp die tetap kakak saya

saya sayang kakak saya

Monday, September 27, 2010


it's finally going to come to an end
the awesome magical journey we've all been traveled since 10 years
(or even longer for those who read the book earlier)

cant wait!!

with love (and anticipation)

Thursday, September 23, 2010

selagi hayat dikandung badan, takkan putus tali persaudaraan

ages it has been since my last post
masuk clinical year ni
rse berat sgt tgn nk menaip post
ni pun belum tentu berkekalan lagi

itu sume x penting
yang penting post kali ni
it is juat a perspective of a 20 years old girl towards attitude of those older than her

first of all

this is my favourite iklan raya for this year
thumbs up to maxis
everytime i watch this ad
truthfully, tears will be there
it serves its purpose very well
to remind us all about silaturrahim yang xkn mungkin putus
say whatever u want
but that's the fact

"selagi hayat dikandung badan, takkan putus tali persaudaraan"

it brought me back to the 3rd hari raya incident
*in which i am not even there*

i never thought people can gaduh around hari raya
it's raya folks!!
it's the time of the year to mend up broken relationships,
to forgive and forget,
to realise that no matter how big the grudges that you're holding towards another people, this is the time to let go
*it's not that i'm saying we can only do this during raya, but that's the tradition right??!!!*

to make it even worse
the one gaduh around was the older generation
*sorry if someone gets hurt reading this*
but grow up!!
if that's what you are going to show to us the younger generation,
then what do u expect us to be like??

everybody has anger,
everybody has things they dont like about other people
but do realise that we are not perfect
we will never be
so start trying to accept others as how they are
and people will start to accept you too

please everyone out there
stop fighting around
it will only bring you sadness and anger and stress
and later will eventually lead to heart problem and death

just remember this

"selagi hayat dikandung badan, takkan putus tali persaudaraan"

selamat hari raya
with love

Sunday, May 2, 2010

first chocolate b.r.o.w.n.i.e.s

my first trial of making chocolate brownies
and it's a success

recipe : choc brownies

next mission : cheese cake

till then

with love

Friday, April 16, 2010

i actually drove the b.e.n.z

yesterday my abah picked me up from college
the real plan at first was that i will go home with my sis aina today instead of asking my abah to pick me up
eventhough exam ended on tuesday

wednesday night
my abah called
and this was how part of the conversation like

abah : kakya nk balik esk x?abah bley amik..sbb abah mmg ade hal kt shah alam hari tu
me : xpela bah..mcm menyusahkan..kakya blik ngan kakak jela hari jumaat
abah : xpela..kalau abah amik kakya esk,blik tu kakya bwkla kete ni..abah duk sblh je
me : haaa?!!!serious??
abah : yela..
me : mmm..nnti dira fkirla dlu..takut xsmpat nk kemas brg je..nnti kakya confirm ngan abah smula ye

my abah knows how to lure me into going back with him
giving me the opportunity to drive his car
*something i thought i can only dream about*

to tell the truth
i am the only one in this house with driving license yg belum merasa drive my abah's car tu lg
tp all this time i was like
xpela..saya masih blum layak lg kot nk drive kete je la snowvy kakak tu
but last night
abah made my dream came true
*blissful =D*

i drove the sedan kt highway
abah pesan mule2, "kakya bwk jgn laju2..80-90 je ye"
saya pun angguk sajala
tp tgh2 highway tu, adela kete slow merata2
saya pun ckp kt abah saya, "dira potong kete ni bah ye"
my abah just replied, "kalau xde kete,potongla"
saya pun seronokla memotong kereta2 yg ada di highway tu
tp tiap kali nk take over, kne consult abah dlu
*ngeee =D*

driving abah's sedan sgt berbeza
xterasa lgsg ble laju
selesa je
this was the 3rd car i've drove
and the best yet

maybe because it was a b.e.n.z

till then

with love

made in s.w.e.d.e.n

all this time
pegi IKEA just for the pleasure of sight-seeing dlm showroom die
tp that day
disebabkan seronok sgt exam da selesai
i ended up buying 7 items
which i didnt have anything to regret about it
7 items in a affordable price
i was quite happy actually

i developed psychological dependence
*in lay-man term : addiction*

since duit scholar da masuk
so berisiko untuk memandu ke arah damansara
and ended up dkt IKEA lg

this post is actually to show
the 7 items i bought
first time spending money dkt IKEA

item 0 : Grimen

this one is my favourite
since 1st time i laid eyes on this bed
selesa gle
slalu baring2 ngan kakak ats katil ni kalau lalu bhgian bedroom
tp xbelila
*that's why it became item 0*
it will not serve the purpose pun kalau beli

item 1 : Lack

sort of side table
nk ltk dlm bilik kt ktdi nnti
*huhu..see prof..tlgla luluskn saya..saya da xsabar sgt nk g ktdi..siap beli furniture lg*
beli colour red so that my white V will look stunning on it
plus my new speaker is red in colour

item 2 : Tindra

berries candles
seriously bilik wangi
time kakak ckp,kinda xpercaya
ble da bkr sndiri,then bru prcaya
wangi =D

item 3 : Vessla

ini mmg sgt perlu oke
container yg ade tayar kt bwh
so bley tolak merata2
and i no longer need to have the risk of getting prolapsed intervertebral discs everytime i need to move my heavy books from one place to another

item 4 : Jall

this one utk menggantikan bakul ketam saya yang da koyak
so pasni bleyla bermalas-malasan before lipat baju
baju2,sila duduk diam2 dlm Jall oke!

item 5 : Praktisk

ini adala pelekat utk dilekatkn pada bwh permukaan furniture
supaya ia tidak bergerak2 dan tidak rosak
especially Mammut kesayangan saya
*Mammut akan diperkenalkan kpd umum di bawah =D*

item 6 : Mammut

ini kesukaan dan kesayangan saya
bangku comel berwarna putih
utk dipadankan dgn side table merah bernama Lack td
sgt suka!!!!

item 7 : Neglinge

sorry kerana trlupa utk snap gmbr die
it's actually a candleholder
yg digunakan utk pgg Tindra everytime i burn it

picture courtesy to IKEA
ini gmbr curik dr laman web IKEA =D

itula dia brg2 yg saya beli di IKEA
nnti nk ajak kakak saya pg lgla =D

till then

with love


sorry sebab suda lama tidak update blog ini

mulai hari ini, dan sebulan yg akan dtg *insyaAllah jika saya lulus exam saya*
saya akan kerap menambah isi blog ini okeh!!

jika tidak lulus *nauzubillah* saya perlu kembali menghadap nota2 neuroscience saya
*nota2 tersebut terpilih kerana paper tersebut yang relatively mempunyai possibility gagal yang agak tinggi*

apa2pun,doakan saya lulus oke

till then

with love