the last time

i woke up at 5 this morning

realising that today will be the last day i'll be able to look directly into his eyes

and have to wait at least a year to get that same chance again

i never posted anything so publicly about him in my blog before this

perhaps today is the day

i met him officially 3++ years ago

when i entered the JAD programme and eventually left it to pursue my dream of getting a MD

he was a nice guy

we began as friends

and later it evolves into what we have this very day

we didnt went out so many times

sometimes once in couple of months

he's busy

and so am i

*luckily i havent entered clinical years yet*

we fight a lot

*really really a lot*

most of the times

the blame was on me

and also most of the time

a managed to shift the blame onto him

and it almost always ended up with him apologizing

*i sounded bad right..well, i am*

i realised that during these 3 years

i always took him for granted

hurting him and even being mad at him for no good reasons at all

i'm sorry

today

we met for the last time

took picture for the last time

and have to wait for at least another 365 days before having the same chance again

i'll be waiting

i will

i love him

and i believe he does too

and one more thing

his name is Ali Azeezie Mohamad Zon

till then

with love