just a thought - from a friend to another

assalamualaikum

to be honest

you are one of the people yang i look high upon

once upon a time, this thought about you pernah came across my mind

"bagusla..at least ada org melayu yang boleh jd leader"

but then 

this few weeks sort of open my eyes about you

and this thought pulak yang came across my mind

"kalau diri sendiri pun xbole nk pimpin, mcm mne nk jd leader utk org lain"

allow me to be frank

i have always thought that entering med school is one of the things in life that i can never thank God enough

and that leads me into becoming who i am today

some might consider me skema dan yang sewaktu dgnnya

i felt terrible when i failed to attend any form of class

be it just the trivial morning rounds

or even going to observe operations where sometimes i didnt know what was happening at all!!

then again

some individuals simply skip all this routines

which surprise surprise!

includes YOU

i have been observing people all around me

and some are known to be just like that

skipping classes and all

but to include you in that group of people was somehow embarrassing!!

you skipped ward rounds

you didnt attend clinic sessions

you failed to be present at the operation theatres

you denied responsibilities given to you

allow me to asked you then,

what is your purpose of entering med school??

it may sound harsh

but to be honest

you definitely didnt deserve your place you are in right now

and if you accidentally graduated as a medical doctor

i dont think you will be a good one

people say he's in love

give him space and time to love and feel loved

to enjoy whatever feeling he's been losing himself in

you know what,

i'm in love too

i have been in love for the past 4 years and 10 months

and you know what

i have never skipped any class

AT ALL!!

grow up man!!

you are an adult

take control of your life as you should be doing

fine if you're in love

congratulations i would say

but remember that love is just one small tiny little part of your life

there's more to it

and you need to recognize that before it's too late

and if this love of yours let you be who you are now

supporting you skipping classes and all

ruining your reputation

making you lose all the respects you have had before

then she might not be in love with you after all

she probably doesnt deserve you at all

if you're reading this, whoever you are

think about it

yours sincerely,

.ambiguity.

assalamualaikum

it had been a while since a posted anything about my exams

as far as i remember the last exam review i did was when i was in 2nd year

so 

2 years later 

*now*

i'm going to review another paper i just answered earlier today

FF4118

PSYCHIATRY - Theory

as any sane people would have expected

examination will definitely filled with ambiguousness

questions with multiple possible answers

today's paper was another example

but the ambiguousness was extremely unbearable

*probably because i did not know what to answer i supposed*

nevertheless, i still want to rant here!!

it was the KFQ part

*KFQ stands for key feature question*

in psychiatry paper

there were 5 KFQs

so in a simple review :

no 1. quite direct question on bulimia nervosa, the reason for diagnosis, the treatment, and what not

no 2. a little difficult question on anxiety disorder, how to differentiate with costochondritis, and the treatment

no 3. *save this for a longer review after this*

no 4. a man with alcohol withdrawal with delirium and visual hallucination of a dinosaur plunging towards him

no 5. a quite simple question of schizophrenia and things associated with it 

now, moving on to the most ambiguous question i've ever answered

this was how the question

*more or less*

a 21-years old clerk was brought to casualty dept because sudden aggressive behaviour in which he threw stones at the window panes of his office. it was about a few minutes when he later was noted to be confused and kept to himself. he had similar episodes before this which preceeded by mouth-chewing and jerky movements of the limbs

he did not realised anything that had happened at all. all he remembered was buzzing sounds in his ears prior to losing his consciousness

q1 . what is you provisional diagnosis?

i was like, WHAT??

ape ni?mcm xpernah dgr je

maybe some of my friends are familiar with the scenario

but definitely not me

but it did not end there

proceed

q2. what is your differential diagnosis?

how am i supposed to come out with differentials when i cannot even think about the provisional

uurrrggghhhhh!!

q3. give four reasons to support your provisional diagnosis

my goodness!!

this definitely not going towards the right direction

reasons for provisional??

i dont even have one for the love of god!!

q4. list 3 biological investigations relevant in this patient

fine!!

u asked for it

i'll list down whatever investigations that came across my mind and have things to do with the mind

it's psychiatry afterall, isn't it??

q5. what is the most useful drug that can be used to treat this condition?

there you go

treating something i dont even have a single idea about

what should i prescribed then?

anti-depressant?

perhaps anti-psychotics?

or mood stabilizers?

luckily the question ends there

and i spent 30 minutes staring at that question

ONLY staring

oh my goodness

thank god it's over

in my mind at that moment

what if this is a real-life situation?

what if i was the medical officer attending this patient?

if i was in a secondary or tertiary hospital

i probably can consult my specialist or consultant or whoever more experienced

but what if i was the only medical officer in a district hospital?

what then??

*sigh*

let's not think about that just yet

and focus on the next paper tomorrow

help me dear god

random.ness

assalamualaikum

 "so excuse me forgetting, but these things i do

you see i've forgotten if they're green or they're blue

anyway the thing is what i really mean

yours are the sweetest eyes i've ever seen"

EltonJohn

"you've saved my life, now maybe it's my turn to save yours

but i can never repay you, what you did to me was way more"

Eminem

"aku manusia lemah, selalu terjatuh

berbeda aku darimu, kau berdiri teguh

aku serba tiada, aku kekurangan

dan bila kau tiba, aku hilang dari kewujudan"

Yuna

"and the tears come streaming down your face

when you lose something you can't replace

when you love someone but it goes to waste

could it be worse?"

Coldplay

"when the evening shadows and the stars appear

and there is no one there to dry your tears

i could hold you for a million years

to make you feel my love"

Adele

p/s : just some random music in my playlist

happy.exam.everyone ^_^

assalamualaikum


*somewhere inside my mental apparatus*


mr.Id : let's do something fun..watch movie perhaps?
mr.Superego : nadhira, go read your notes..you have your psychiatry paper in less than 48 hours..dont waste your time for god sake!!
mr.Id : chill superego..nadhira had been reading all week..
mr.Superego : no she did not!!she hasnt read enough!!
mr.Id : she did!!!
mr.Superego : if you are so sure, then tell me the differences between neuroleptic malignant syndrome and serotonin toxicity syndrome and give me the immediate management for lithium toxicity
mr.Ego : errrrr......
mr.Superego : see!!told you she hasnt read enough yet!!
mr.Ego : okay folks..lets do some reading
mr.Id : fine!!!


just some hallucinations of mine :)





happy exam everyone!!
best of luck

cheers




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.super.adorable.

assalamualaikum

dalam perjalanan ke Ikea ptg semalam bersama-sama kakak, abg izhar dan mikhail .super.adorable.

kakak : mikhail pg duk blakang dgn aya..baca satu sampai sepuluh

mikhail .super.adorable. pun berpindah ke belakang

saya : oke mikhail..jom baca satu smpi sepuluh

saya : satu
mikhail : atu
saya : dua
mikhail : iga
saya : empat
mikhail : pat
saya : lima
mikhail : nam
saya : tujuh
mikhail : joh
saya : lapan
mikhail : apan
saya : sembilan
mikhail : puluh

saya : kak, apesal ade nombor die lompat2?
kakak : memang mcm tu..ade nombor die xnk sebut

saya : oh..mcm tu..oke..sekarang bace one to ten pulak..jom mikhail..ikut aya baca

saya : one
mikhail : one
saya : two
mikhail : car!car!car! *sambil tunjuk2 kereta kt luar*
saya : oke..mikhail..two..
mikhail : aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

saya : oke..da malas..xpyh baca da

mikhail .super.adorable. senyum and terus pg depan kacau abg izhar bawak kereta :)


comel sangat!!!







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