another thought

i was once upon a time a debater

all through secondary school

*plus the very early year in ukm*

i was always the 3rd speaker

*i tried becoming the 1st speaker once, but it was a COMPLETE disaster*

so it had always been a pleasure to me to whip people around

but not today

these days

i watched and listened people around me giving snide comments on some heart-pouring session i had a week plus ago

i saw them giving me faces

calling me all the names in the books

saying how wrong i was

but i dont feel like fighting back

in fact

i felt nothing

AT ALL

as far as i am concern

i didnt use rude words

i didnt mention names

not even initials

so if any of you out there thinks i wrote about any particular person

you yourself must have your own reasons

i am terribly sorry for not having the gut to tell anyone anything personally

yup..that's my mistake

but if you dont think that i was talking about you

you should have no reason in the world to feel anything

shouldnt you?

yours sincerely,

p/s :

kata org melayu, siapa yang makan cili, dia yang terasa pedas nya

jadi izinkan saya bertanya, kenapa perlu yang tak makan cili tu beria-ia mencari air?

--

" The truth is incontrovertible.

Malice may attack it, ignorance may deride it.

But in the end, there it is "

Winston Churchill

just a thought - from a friend to another

assalamualaikum

to be honest

you are one of the people yang i look high upon

once upon a time, this thought about you pernah came across my mind

"bagusla..at least ada org melayu yang boleh jd leader"

but then 

this few weeks sort of open my eyes about you

and this thought pulak yang came across my mind

"kalau diri sendiri pun xbole nk pimpin, mcm mne nk jd leader utk org lain"

allow me to be frank

i have always thought that entering med school is one of the things in life that i can never thank God enough

and that leads me into becoming who i am today

some might consider me skema dan yang sewaktu dgnnya

i felt terrible when i failed to attend any form of class

be it just the trivial morning rounds

or even going to observe operations where sometimes i didnt know what was happening at all!!

then again

some individuals simply skip all this routines

which surprise surprise!

includes YOU

i have been observing people all around me

and some are known to be just like that

skipping classes and all

but to include you in that group of people was somehow embarrassing!!

you skipped ward rounds

you didnt attend clinic sessions

you failed to be present at the operation theatres

you denied responsibilities given to you

allow me to asked you then,

what is your purpose of entering med school??

it may sound harsh

but to be honest

you definitely didnt deserve your place you are in right now

and if you accidentally graduated as a medical doctor

i dont think you will be a good one

people say he's in love

give him space and time to love and feel loved

to enjoy whatever feeling he's been losing himself in

you know what,

i'm in love too

i have been in love for the past 4 years and 10 months

and you know what

i have never skipped any class

AT ALL!!

grow up man!!

you are an adult

take control of your life as you should be doing

fine if you're in love

congratulations i would say

but remember that love is just one small tiny little part of your life

there's more to it

and you need to recognize that before it's too late

and if this love of yours let you be who you are now

supporting you skipping classes and all

ruining your reputation

making you lose all the respects you have had before

then she might not be in love with you after all

she probably doesnt deserve you at all

if you're reading this, whoever you are

think about it

yours sincerely,